What I Felt Right Now...

I don't know where to start and how to write. It's not that easy to just let it all out like this.I wish I could say something knowing fully that she did her best to be with me and yet I wasn't being understanding to her. I don't know why I suddenly feel it's not enough when the truth it's enough. She must be stressing herself out by being with me and thinking of me. I'm a burden to her, I wish she would say something to me because I would never know what's on her mind. 

The reason why I feel lonely it's because of our conversation got shorter and our chat hasn't been the same.I may be overthinking about it, I just can feel it. Maybe it's my own imagination and that's why I feel lonely for the past few days. I admit it that I'm an attention seeker, I'm sorry but I never felt being loved so dearly by my own partner. And maybe that's why I feel so lonely.

She never once said anything about me being a burden to her instead I was the only one who said it sometimes. She never once told me she's tired of me, she's always straight forward with me no matter what. Even it might hurt me she still said what she think is right to her. That's one of my reason why I love her so much. She may a year order than me but she is amazing girl. 

The loneliness that I felt inside of me is something I should be stopping from especially being overthinking. It is not good for my health or my relationship with my partner. I don't want to ruin anything because I love her and I cherish her with my wholeheartedly. My loneliness isn't that serious because I can still be happy with my girl without even thinking about my problems.

However she might not like it if she knows that I've been having this kind of situation. She might get mad or nag at me for being too selfish and overthinking about this kind of situation. I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass, I know you would go angry at me for being careless again. It feels like I didn't trust you at all knowing how I feel right now. I'm sorry my love for being childish and sorry for doubting you. I'm scare that you would slowly feel bored and tired when you're with me. So yeah I'm sorry my baby.