The Memory

Hello everyone it's been awhile for me to post a new blog. So today I decided to write about my journey with my ex. How she hurt me and decieved me. She fooled me not once but twice. She had me from the start. I was too stupid for not seeing how she played me like a basketball. Everyone told me I should move on and find a new love but I didn't listened instead I still stay and defense her that she isn't like that kind of a person.

One day something happen, she suddenly vanish without a word.I thought it was my fault but sadly she actually running away from me. She left me.She's gone. No trace at all.Not a single call or text from her. I was devastated.I was depress knowing she suddenly left. I thought I gave her what she wants, she would stay and be happy with me. I was wrong, I was played real well. 

Three months without hearing from her.I started to move on and be happy. I thought if she could last me with no explanation then I would just go on with my life and no more saddness. Then all of sudden, you called me using your mom's phone.I was shook and the pain that I thought was long gone came back. 

You told me why you suddenly vanish from my life without explanation. I was quiet the all time. I was speechless, blank and hurt. Just hearing your voice brings back all the pain you put me through. 

The phone call was actually invitation to your wedding that would be in a month. And that's when I realize that you only come into my life just to get rid of your boredom.Well I did went to see your wedding and it was painful. I told myself that she's not for me and she's not good for my health. And so I move on even how badly she treated me, forever I would remember. I may forgive her but my hatred towards her would forever be there.

My world crashes and my heart scarred. On that day, I decided just move on and find someone else.I want to create another new beginning with someone who truly loves me and see my effort without taking granted. When I do find that person, I would treat her way better than I treated my ex and she will loves me and help me without thinking twice. She will also treat me the same way as I did. That's a relationship goals.

Memory will always be there no matter what, so be thankful and start a new chapter of your life. Never regret instead be thankful that you have learned a new things about life, love, pain, sad and mostly happiness. Lessoned to learned. That's memory for you. Smile and keep going with your life.