I'M SORRY

THREE YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, I HURT A FRIEND OF MINE REALLY BADLY UNTIL NOW SHE WON’T FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I’VE DONE. I TRY TO CALL HER BUT SHE ALREADY CHANGE HER PHONE NUMBER’S , SO I TRY EMAIL TO EMAIL AS AN APOLOGY BUT SHE SAID THAT ” WHO ARE YOU, I DUNNO YOU AND DID WE EVER MET BEFORE?”.

MY HEART REALLY HURT THAT TIME WHEN I READ THAT STUPID MESSAGE, I KNOW IT WAS MY FAULT BUT I TRY TO TELL HER THAT I’M REALLY SORRY FOR WHAT I’VE DONE AND ALSO I WANT US TO BE FRIEND AGAIN EVEN THOUGHT WE NOT SO CLOSE BUT I JUST WANT FORGIVENESS FROM HER.I KNOW IT’S ALREADY TOO LATE TO APOLOGIES BUT I WAS SO WRONG WHEN I MAKE YOU CRY AND MAD AT THE SAME TIME AND AT THE SAME DAY, I KNOW I WAS SO DAMN WRONG ABOUT WHAT I'VE DONE TO YOU. UNTIL NOW ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT IS YOU, BECAUSE THE SIN THAT I MAKE WILL NEVER BE FORGIVE BY YOU.

I WAS DAMN STUPID AT THAT TIME I HOPE YOU WILL FORGIVE ME, SO PLEASE DO NOT FORGET WHAT I SAID TO YOU THAT ” I WILL ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT WHAT I’VE DONE TO YOU AND I WILL NEVER EVER GOING TO FORGET ABOUT IT. I SWEAR IT “, I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M SAYING.

My Mistake

I remember your smiles

I remember your laughs

I remember what we always do

But everything change for a reason.

I wonder if you could come back

Or maybe just maybe give me a second chance

Because I can't live without you

Even if I'm with someone else.

You know that right?

I only will hurt the one I'm dating

Because my heart still asking for you

And want you here again.

Tell me if you mean it?

The words you said to me

The "I love you"

Because I wanted you to mean it.

My lover gives me an option

Choose you or him

But how am I supposed to choose?

Tell me how?

He knows that I'm a dyke

But he still loves me for who I am

But it's me who isn't being to honest with him

Since my heart wants you.

In the end

I had to choose you instead him

Even if you didn't come back

And lost the great guy in the world.

I don't care

Because this is what I want

Or maybe want your heart back

But there's one thing I didn't notice about you.

That you already have someone else

Now I'm the fool one

I lost you and him

What a complicated life I'm in it.

I wish I could turn back the time

And try to love him

And forget about you

I was so messed up, I'm sorry.

Nothing But Random Words

"You're one in a million" that's what I always heard.

"Hey pretty, is it just me or is it the sun shine so bright I could only see you in my eyes" pickup lines aren't my type.

"So what's for dinner?"

"You"

Okay that is so lame.

 

I wonder what I always used to say to my girl? I hope it is a romantic words and can melt her heart. Sometime I can never be good as the other romantic people. But I do try to be the right one for my girl and not being the perfect one. Being the right one is better than perfect.

Being faithful isn't hard, being a player is hard. Wanna know why? 

Faithful people

-You only think of her and no one else

-You don't lose much money since it's her you focus on

-You don't need to stress yourself out

-You just have to take care 1 heart.

Player people

-You need to think of lie words

-You need to make a dates for them without getting caught

-You need to take care of 2 hearts.

-You need more ideas without getting caught

-You lose money

-You need to buy new number and new phone

See that's why being faithful is better than a player. I used to be one of them but after I meet with my girlfriend (NHA) I am now happy with her. Even though we are doing a long distance relationship but we still work things out. 

I am not good in my explanation or writing. But better to say, I am so happy and never regret of knowing her and having her in my life. I am so excited to have her as my girlfriend. 

Anyway that is for now, I try to write more and maybe add my short story here and even my art work as well. I might tell a little bit about myself and my girlfriend. I will try to have time to write. 

Sincerely,

Ilzah Yusof  -B.A.F Photographer-

For You

For you I do anything

For you I will be the best lover

For you I give you love

For you I will make you happy.

I'll be the right one for you

I'll be the loving lover for you

I'll be the fighter for you

I'll be the romantic for you.

Every night is the night I dream of you.

I could swear you're the one for me.

You change my life from worse to better.

You shine in my heart.

I wonder if I am for you

If I am in your dream

If I am in your mind

And If I am in your heart.

I will done everything for you.

Traveling and being adventure.

Sorry if I am not good in this.

I try just for you.

Sincerely,

B.A.F Photographer