What is Good in Love?

I always wonder what is good in love? I never thought about it before. I always goes for it and look for someone who can be love and being loved back. But unfortunately, I failed to notice that love isn't that fair in any kind of relationship.

So I was wondering why I always to be blame in everything. Like for example, the break up thing. It always my fault when the truth, it was never mine. Some people said that you just have to let your ego down and take the blame instead pointing back at the other partner. Yeah, like every relationship I took the blame and never satisfied actually. It is my fault for not having a strong heart or cold heart. 

There was one time I fought back, like argue back to my ex about why am I the only one who is to be blame here when you're always the right one. And guess what? She pointed out to every single thing I had done wrong when we were together. All I do was stand there and be queit and just keep on staring at her in disbelieve looks. What can I say? I am not a fighter when it comes to arguing with someone I care or love.

In the end, I always lose and take the blame. I am tired for never had a steady relationship. Like really never once I had a steady and happy relationship. I even lie to my friends and myself that I am happy with my ex. Why is it so hard to find the right one? All I want is just an honesty, trustworthy and loving. Nothing else but those 3 things. 

I am an inside and outside closet. That's my story of my relationship for the past few years. Taking the blame, giving in to them and never fight back. So until next time. See ya! 

Nothing's Forever By Jamestown Story

I listen to this song every night before went to bed or more like till morning and fall asleep. I kind a wish it won't happen but it did. Gosh how am I such a fool for believing that there would be forever in You & I. Guess I was wrong from the very start.

I never regret anyway for loving her and for being with her. I could tell you all that I am the happiest girl when I am with her. So yeah, I guess she is happy now. I can't blame her for breaking up with me. It was my fault for everything to fall apart. I blame myself for ever treat her wrong. I hope for the best for her and her new happiness. Glad to know her and call to ever call her 'Mine'.

I pray for your happiness everyday for the rest of my life. I promise you. You will always have the part of me, the part that never anyone could have. I promise you. I will always remember you and love you.

Sincerely Your Ex,

ILZAH