The day you break me, it was the day when the sun wasn’t there and the sky started to become grey. It looks like it was about to rain. I keep walking on the side of the road with my head looking ahead but my mind thinking about you. I was wearing a black purple jacket with a hood to cover my head. I was feeling lonely and cold at the same time. Nothing change but my heart does.
As I was walking down the side of the road, something dropping from the sky. I stop from my track and look up at the sky and another dropping falls from the sky before it is starting to rain. I sigh and continue on my track. Suddenly something caught my eyes, I wasn’t sure if I should approach because I wasn’t ready to face the person that standing not far from where I am. My heart beat faster and loud almost I could hear it.
“Should I or shouldn’t I?” I started to ask myself if I should approach the person.
Before I knew what was happening, the person turns around and our eyes meet. We were lost in our own world as our eyes locked like it was just me and her. She was looking beautiful as I remember, but then I broke the eye contacts and give her a weak smile. She returns it and walk towards me like nothing ever happens.
“It’s nice to see you again, Greg. How are you?” she asks me as soon as she was standing in front of me. Eyes to eyes, face to face. I wasn’t feeling good to know how close she is. I wonder what it feels like to hug her like old time and how awkward we are right now standing face to face.
“Yeah same as you. I’m great. You? How’s Jack?” I ask her like nothings ever happen when the truth my heart breaks into pieces. She was everything to me but like everyone said “if we don’t take care of our girl/guy, someone will do that for us” I guess it is true now that she is with that Jack guy who is always be there for her when I’m busy and often forget about our dates when we were still together.
“He is fine Greg, and so do I. Where are you going on this rainy day?” she asks me with her beautiful smiles that make every guy knees turns weak and melt.
I smile and a little bit chuckle before saying “just went for a walk. So, I heard about the news. Congrats though on the engagement.” Saying those word make me hard to breathe. How I hate myself for being selfish and forget she was there all along but I was too blind to notice.
“Thanks” she smiles widely and happily at me. My heart stop for a minute and soon break into pieces as I remember she is no longer mine.
After a few chit chatting with her. I finally have the guts to excuse myself and went back home as I leave her to where she was. I know she was waiting for her soon-to-be-husband. I know she knows I’m hurting but she did tries her best to make me feel okay and not feeling the awkwardness when I know it was there.
I was stupid for letting you go, but I now realize she is with someone who can make her happy and smile all the times. And always have time for her no matter whatever happens, but when she was with me, I never have the time for her. I was very damn stupid, it hurt me a lot.
“I’m sorry” I said to no one but the sky and the heavy rain. I hurt her and now she was with someone else. I regret everything, I regret that she is with someone else. Most of all, I feel jealous that someone else makes her happy instead of me. Nothing can ever change the way when it is already happens. All I know is that I’m stupid and I promise when I found someone else I will make her the happiest girl in the earth even though I can’t forgive myself for hurting the girl I ever love. Never will I make the same mistake.
