Random #9 (Don't Doubt My Love!)

As I walk down the street, thinking back at the fight we had. I really didn't mean to sound disgust but it just come out from my mouth without any warning. You were the one saying something that is un-true, you even said I was cheating behind your back with some random girls that I really don't know.

Looking above the stars,
Remembering the fun we had,
It was seem just like yesterday,
When we know we falling in love.

Baby what gone wrong?
What made you think I cheated on you?
Didn't you trust me like I trust you?
You really hurt a lot.

Maybe we aren't meant to be
But why I see our future together?
And why I could feel fireworks when we kiss?
Please don't doubt my love to you.

I read back the paper again and again until tears flowing down on my face, it's feel so long I didn't cry this much. It hurts a lot, like I've been stab by a hundred-thousand knives in my heart. I wish you will realize how wrong  you are for saying such things, even I know I feel guilty for saying those things. At least I apologies before I walk away, I know you want too; but you was too stubborn to say it or give up.  

My Life In School/Out School

People keep saying bad things about me and even making fun of me, even if its hurt me but I ignored them and try to smile to their teasing.

I know I'm no one but I do have feeling, and it hurts when our classmate made fun of us especially in front of the teachers or the people we love.

There were the times when I think back all the fights I had with my best friends, friends and family. It was nothing but hurtful memory, its like your the bad person, even though you try to struggling to search for the real you.

Mocking and teasing are okay with me, but when they try to go far a bit then they will end up in the hospital. Well I don't mind making that happen but since I remember my family and their dignity, I just couldn't do it; beside I'm no bad person who try to make people hurt.

Not Like them, they never did tired hurting, mocking and teasing the weak one since they can show their friends that they're the boss and people will scared of them. Well duh! That just stupid, they sure doesn't have any brain at all.

Being the victim of the bullies was not the best in my life, it's already 7-8 years I've been bullied but I just keep calming and patient. Even I once I try to punch someone, but I just couldn't since I'm not that kind of person.

Bullies are weak since they only bully the weak one, if they're not weak then why not bullied the same level as them; not the lower.

Seriously, what's wrong with this world and what's wrong with my life? Can't I have just a normal Life for once, I'm so tired of being the laughing stock and most of all being hated while anti at the same time... There will be no words I can describe in what world I'm in;

Random #8 (Hurt And Pain)

Looking above the stars,
Remembering the past,
The pain coming back,
Wish it could go away.

Shining so brightly,
Under the full moon,
You make me love,
But the hurt still there.

Will there be love again?
Will there be happy ending?
Will there be an 'us'?
Tell me my love.

You said we would last froever,
You said to trust you,
You even said don't worry,
Now you already gone.

Struming my guitar,
Trying to make our song,
But nothing comes in mind,
Only tears flows down on my face.

Would there be a second chance for us?
Would there be love again?
Tell me my love,
It really hurt me alot.

Pretending is what you are,
Never regret in what you do,
You move on so fast,
Leaving me miserable.

There's nothing left,
But pain and broken heart,
Because that what you are,
An heartbreaker.

What you want?

In the middle of the night, you yell at me for not being a good wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend and the one who you use to love. I try to calm you down, but you just push me away and shut me out from you life.

What did I ever done to you that you said those horrible, hurtful and painful words? I did try my best to love you for whom you are, but it's you who didn't let me.

You slap me, kick me, yell at me but all I do was trying to calm you down. I didn't even feel the pain, because whenever I see your tears flows down from your eyes, I can't help to feel guilty.

What you want? Tell me please, it's killing me to see you hurt when I'm here tying my best to guess and help you out. I don't want a perfect relationship, I just want a normal but trustworthy, honesty and love in our relationship.

It doesn't matter if we're not perfect, at least we love each other equally and let the world see how much you're meant to me and how much I love you for who you are; So please, don't shut me down and let me in. I want us to work it out, just tell me what you want and I'll give it to you.

Even if you ask me to do stupid things, I will do it. Because you are my everything in this world, no one can ever change how my love for you.

Random #7 (When A Girl)

When a girl said "I love you" you don't have to say it back. Just smile and say "I know"

When a girl talks a lot, don't complain, just listen and smile. So she knows that you listen.

When a girl come crying to you, don't bother to ask "why?" Just hold her tightly, to let her know everything will be alright.

When a girl ask you "what's wrong" don't hesitate to tell her the truth, she will always be there for you.

When you fight with her, make sure that you and her said "sorry" equally. Then you know how sorry and love she is to you.

Don't try to think negative things about her, it means that you didn't trust her like she trusted you.

Don't come into conclusion when you don't have any evidence that she's cheat on you.

Don't ever doubting that she might have a crush on someone, but doesn't mean she wants to be  with that person; Crush is just a crush, soon it will fade away.

If she ever ask you about 'cheating', you don't have to explain at her in anger. Just say "I would rather be with you than anyone else, don't ever think like that."

If she said "can you keep a secret?" that mean she trust you with her secret, since not every girl would trust people with their secret. Not even family and friends.

Never let the girl feel so lonely and empty, try to be there for her even if she said "I'm okay" when the truth she's not.

Let her be comfortable to you, maybe she knows that you can be the one who can help her and protect her.

Make her feel special towards you, never lose hopes in her even she's already broken into pieces.

Even though she's already broken, that doesn't mean you have to hurt her even more. Try to be the person that she knows you can change her and make her forget the pain.

The girl's heart is not that strong like a guy's heart, all they ever wanted was Love, Caring, Brave, Strong, Sweet and most of all Honesty.

Be that person that every girl dreams for; be the one that can give her what was already lost in her small heart and life.

If you do all the things for her, she will always love you and knows that you're the one that change her life from upside-down.

Message from the author: Sorry I haven't update anything since I'm busy with my school and tons of homeworks. I try my best to update more, including my life in school and loves life too. Hope you enjoy reading the new update ^^ No copyright! I did this own my own, it just came slip inside my crazy mind haha! Hope you all are fine and happy always, don't hesitate to leave a comment :)